Widnes

This last weekend I have been in Widnes seeing Jim and had a really good time, didn’t want to come home at all! Our weekend started on Thursday night when Jim came down here on the train to make sure I get to Widnes alright as it is a long journey. I did half of the driving and Jim drove the rest of the way. I decided to pull over when he tugged at my last straw saying “you don’t wanna do that, you should do this!!”, got on my wick so in the end I let him drive. lol I was grateful though as it was nice to chillax (well, the first few miles of Jim driving in my dodgy Corsa was a bit anxious, due to the gears playing up). The weather was horrendous and it just didn’t stop raining as we hit Shrewsbury. We got there safe and sound though and that’s all that matters.

On the Saturday we went to Liverpool and it’s a lovely place. Although the people there talk funny and it was hard to understand what they were saying! We went in a few museums, a few drinks, and went down Albert Dock. On the river they had people trying to walk on the water in these balls. They zip, you sit inside them, then the ball gets pumped full of oxygen and you’re pushed into the water and left to yourself for 10 minutes playing about. Looked like such fun, was a bit expensive though at £5 for 10 minutes but I wanted to go on it. However there was a queue and we thought different of it.

The buildings there are lovely. They have a mixture of old and modern and it looked really good.

In the evening we went for something to eat and went to a Chinese Resturant. On the menu it said £21.50 banquet and we thought we had to select one of each course, and we thought that was the price for both of us, 2 for 1. We sat down and when a waitress came to our table we selected our starter and we went on to say what meals we’d like and she said “all”. We thought it was a language barrier because of her broken English but we didn’t expect what was coming. When I went to bed that night all I could hear in my sleep was the waitress saying, “Ready for next course?” Seriously, we ate soooo much. I think we experienced all Chinese food in one sitting! Course after course, plate after plate. Then half way through Jim put his arm down on the table not realising a chopstick was on the corner and it summersaulted behind him. Thankfully the guy behind was facing the other way or Jim may still be in the cells done for assault and being sued for compensation due to loss of eye sight.

We were stuffed. By the time the dessert came we looked at each other and tried our best to at least attempt. We had melons but there was also a bowl of Sage, it’s basically like rice pudding except the rice is more like frog spawn. So, so slimy. I just could not eat it although Jim loved it. The taste itself was ok I guess just the texture, totally offputting for me!

The bill came and it was £21.50 each, although it was expensive, the food itself was absolutely gorgeous (expect the frog spawn) and was a really enjoyable evening and was with excellent company.

We ended the night playing Wii Fit. Fit!?? Ha! That’s a laugh. My Wii Fit age is 45. 45!!!!! WTF. We played bowling and tennis and went for a job and also some baseball. I so want a Wii Fit now.

On the Sunday I met Jims parents, one of his sisters, an uncle and his niece and nephews and everyone was lovely, just hope they thought the same about me even though I was quiet! I always am when I meet new people, I’m terrible, but after the first meet it’s usually ok. I also met Jims daughter properly for the first time and we all had pizza and played Guitar Hero. Such fun!!

On the Monday I intended to leave at 10am to get back in time for work and chillax a bit before my shift started (3pm). We hadn’t used my car all weekend and when I went to it my jaw dropped when noticed someone had smashed off my side mirror!!! I could not go on the M6 without one of them. So we went to Halfords to get some stick on ones and Jim sorted it out for me, cutting his fingers when trying to get rid of the shattered glass. Awww. The mirror wouldn’t adjust properly because one of the clips came off so I had to bend and look at an awkard angle to see along side and behind me. A combination of the mirror and my gearbox (hit and miss getting 2 and 4) made the drive a bit stressing but I got home by 2:30pm. Had a very quick shower and went to work and reality came crashing back. I miss him so much, 168 miles, but being in head and heart means you’re never too far away.

I have heaps of photos but haven’t uploaded them yet, when I do I’ll upload a few of them here.

Interviews, Appointments and Skin!

I’m so tired, I’m so tired.. haven’t long got back from work, managed to talk to the deputy and she couldn’t really advise me much which is fair enough as no one knows what is happening to this girl who I’m still covering sick leave for. I explained the situation though which is the main thing, about me applying for college for September, hoping to go to uni and looking at other jobs to extend my experience and she was totally understanding. She realises I’m young and she said she was surprised I have hanged on for so long with my position. She said it would be a shame to lose me, as all the staff like me and the tenants do but I have to move on sometime.

I have my interview tomorrow, I think I know where my certificates are and I need to look for something to wear!

I tried making skin tonight for the casualty simulation practice I’m having on Friday. It’s made with stale breadcrumbs and water and make it into a dough, and you can add colouring to adjust the tone to go with the skin. It looks ok but I think I’ll practice more tomorrow. I’ve ordered my blood and it should be here this week, then *HOPEFULLY* I’ll be all ready for next week. I’m helping out promoting the Red Cross and their services by doing wounds on small children in a supermarket car park. I’m a little nervous about it, mainly because it’s children!

I got confirmation about my counselling appointment today, the soonest one she has is the 31st July. I hope I don’t need to wait that long between each appointment!

Tomorrow Jim is coming down and then we’re driving to his for the weekend, I can’t wait. Meeting the family too which is pretty scary but they seem ok and hopefully it’ll go well.

Anyway I had better go now, see yaz!

Tags: health, jobs/careers, life, red cross

Murders in the Neighbourhood

A woman under police guard in hospital on suspicion of murdering her four-year-old daughter.

The 34-year-old, named locally as Zoe David, was arrested after the body of Zoe-Anne was found by police at their home in Newport, south Wales on Friday.
Ms David was taken to hospital with serious but not life threatening injuries.

This news has shocked the area I live in, it’s practically around the corner. You never think something like this will happen locally it’s always in another city, another country, never on your own doorstep. The latest news is the young girl died of strangulation, and the mother tried to kill herself afterwards. I can’t imagine what must have been going through her mind for her even to think of doing this to her little girl. We’ll need to wait until the psychiatric report comes back but this woman is going to have to live with this for the rest of her life, that in itself is a punishment.

I can’t say I know the family, but that doesn’t lessen the shock. We always think we’re invincible, that we’ll never come of harm. Our family and friends will never come of harm and we’ll all here forever dodging all the badness but it doesn’t work like that. Goes to show that no one knows what is around the corner and one minute everything in life can be peachy then the next it’s all smashed to pieces. It can take weeks, months, years to be who you want to be, go where you want to go, and only one second for it to crash down. Life’s not fair but then, what is?

Humans are strong creatures, I believe in that. I don’t believe in weakness, in all actuality, I believe the people who feel weak are usually the strongest.

I’m not sure what to think of the mother in this recent news. Of course killing her daughter is absolutely unforgivable and for that she should face the consequences of her actions but then at the same time she couldn’t have been in a good state of mind. We can look at people from the outside and they seem sound, but at the end of the day we don’t know what’s going on inside their head. The only person who knows that is the one who’s head it belongs to. Just need to wait now and see how the case progresses

Tags: lifes, news, people

ARRGGHH!!!!

My head is all over the place. Seriously. So much has gone on, currently going on, and what is GOING to go on that my head feels like it’s about to combust. I’m trying to think up ways to make everyone happy, ways in which life can be easier and just plain sailing – but it never is, is it? All the pieces to the puzzle are there it’s just a matter of placing them together. But the puzzle pieces are similar in size and shape and can’t figure out what goes where. Maybe this is a stupid metaphor to use but it’s the best way I can explain it. I know what I want, but I’m not sure how to get it.

I want to start college in September, I have an interview on Thursday. Last college interview I went to I was told there’s no point in me taking the course on because my work schedule clashes and I’ll miss too much of the course. I’m casual, I could lose my job in a few weeks, or months – it’s anyones guess. I can’t do a job share as I’m casual and they’ll soon be looking for full-time staff (I’m not sure to get that as I would need to reapply, interview process etc all over again, one of my colleagues was in the position I’m in and she didn’t get a permanent job because another applicant for the position had more qualifications and was deemed more suitable). I’ve been applying for other jobs but got no where, everything just seems so up in the air at the moment.

My head is fried and I feel like crying, I know what I want but can’t get it and fear I never will. I’m scared things aren’t going to change and even if they do I’m worried that it won’t work out or things will go wrong. I don’t know. I’m due to start counselling soon to talk about certain things, such a milestone for me I’m not sure if I’m strong enough. I want to run away from everything. I just don’t know what to do for the best, about everything. Roll on the weekend, as soon as I’m in Jims arms I’m sure it’ll make me feel better.

Tags: life