Meh
Well as many of our friends know (I’m friends with most of Callums friends, and vice versa), we have split up. I won’t go into all the details here but we’re still on talking terms, which is good. I feel really crap about the whole thing to be honest, my heart is conflicting with my head and normally I listen to my heart but I’ve decided to go with my head and think it’s the right thing to do. Thinking you’re ‘right’ doesn’t always make you happy though, certainly isn’t the case here.
2009 has got off to such a crap start, my head feels overwhelmed with everything and I can’t think straight. I don’t know what I’m doing, where I’m going, what to do next or anything. Was hoping to make this year productive but now… I feel so unmotivated, it’s hard. Really hard. Got my payslip today too and was expecting a decent one as I’ve worked all through Christmas, full time, including triple pay for Christmas/New Year but what I got paid was absolutely appauling. The worst payslip I have had since I’ve been there.
When are things going to go right? Seriously. NOTHING has gone right.
Yes, I’m in one of them moods. Ignore me.
It’s good to vent, sometimes it’s the first step towards improvement, I don’t always understand why things happen but even if you can’t see a light at the end of the tunnel it doesn’t mean there isn’t one there.