Work and such…
Haven’t long got back from work. Been a tiring day. I think I’m settling in well. Actually, one of my co-workers said I am more into it than the other woman who started a week before me, who entered this job directly from being a Home Carer which came as a shock, obviously, seeing as this is my first job and haven’t had THAT much experience, although, I guess I have had quite a bit of experience in the caring part at home, then there’s the Red Cross and Manual Handling course I’ve been on.
I am pretty confident about what I’m meant to do etc, there’s a few times that pop up every now and then which I’m unsure about but with a mixture of nosing around and investigating, and asking a co-worker for help, I’m getting there.
My co-worker said people are talking about the new ones (ie, me and this other woman) … and she said the people who work closest with me (I always work with the same 3 people, only see the other staff on changeover and seniors rarely to give us reports etc) think I’m doing well. But, I’m paranoid now, what are the others thinking about me?? 
Oh well, I haven’t felt any bad vibes. Perhaps I’m just paranoid. And I am new – so maybe they’re dubious, because I am pretty quiet in the staff room. I don’t know!
I don’t like the fact my job is temp, feels pretty unsteady, ya know? I know I have 7 months left but I’m hoping a vacancy pops up which I can apply for. Someone is retiring in March but one of the relief staff has already been promised the position.
Today there was a meeting and that went on for over an hour after I was meant to finish my shift, I don’t think the afternoon crew were too happy about that because they only had an hour or so to go around 20+ flats each which really isn’t much time at all. After the meeting I was leaving work and my boss put her hand on my shoulder and thanked me, which made me smile. She hasn’t thanked or barely took any notice of me since I started the job.
I’ve been losing weight since I started the job, am eating dramatically less than I used to and do a heck of a lot more walking. Got up on the weighing scales the other day and I’ve lost over a stone but I could do with losing it anyway.
Le sigh. I am fed up.